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Friday, January 24, 2014

Relatively Easy

The last two weeks have been a continuous stream of good news and confirmation of how well I've made it through the treatment of and recovery from this disease.  My nephrologist telling me last week that I "breezed through the transplant," my gastroenterologist telling me that not only is my liver size reducing, its also softening which means its getting closer to normal.

The latest good news that I've shared on Facebook that I had my abdominal ultrasound on Wednesday for a post-transplant re-staging of my disease. It showed that in the 9 months since the transplant, my liver has reduced 5.4 cm in size from 24 cm to 18.6 cm. That meets the defined criteria for organ response. My kidneys were also effected by the Amyloidosis and I've achieved organ response there, also.
Hematologic response--check complete
Liver response--check greater than 2 cm reduction
Kidney response--check greater than 50% reduction in 24-hour urine protein
Here's the picture from an article in the journal of the American Society of Hematology entitled "What do I need to know about immunoglobulin light chain (AL) amyloidosis?" authored by three Mayo physicians including Dr. Gertz who I saw for my second opinion.


So, I've made it across the entire response continuum and for that I am so thankful--thankful to God for His guidance and faithfulness, thankful I pushed for a diagnosis, thankful to my medical team and thankful for the support of my family and friends.  I know of so many amyloidosis patients whose disease went undiagnosed and untreated/ineffectively treated for an extended period of time and suffered irreparable damage to a combination of their heart, kidneys, liver, nerves and/or skin.  They are facing limited strength and endurance due to heart damage, regular dialysis and edema due to kidney damage; ongoing abdominal bloating and digestive problems due to liver damage; painful neuropathy, loss of balance, dangerously low blood pressure due to nerve damage; and/or debilitating pain when doing something as simple as talking or smiling due to amyloids in their soft tissue.  I don't have any of that.  Yes, I have some clinical signs from the damage caused by the disease but they don't impact my ability to live the life I had before.  Yes, I have a ~96% chance of relapse but overall survival in complete response SCT patients is averaging 10 years now and getting longer every day.  I am healthy and disease free until Dr. Efebera presents me with test results and her assessment that I have relapsed.

I've been listening to a new to me artist named Jason Isbell that a friend (music identifier extraordinaire) recommended to me.  He knows I like progressive rock and alt country artists who write poetic lyrics wrapped in simple solid music--Ryan Adams, Josh Ritter, Delta Spirit, Old 97s, The Avett Brothers (still mad I missed their show in May due to my SCT recovery).  Andy Staples, a sportswriter I follow on Twitter and fellow UF Journalism school grad, called Isbell, "A storyteller who follows Strunk and White's rule 17.  That rule says, "Omit needless words." 

Isbell has a song called "Relatively Easy" which has become my favorite song recently.  I know one of the main reasons is because of all the good news I've received compared to others I know fighting Amyloidosis.  I almost feel a little guilty...like that person who survives a plane crash and wonders "Why me?"

Here's a link to the song-- http://youtu.be/NIQ1NHa0g6A



Here are the lyrics that really impact me--
You should know compared
To people on a global scale
Our kind has had it relatively easy
And here with you there's always
Something to look forward to
Our angry heart beats relatively easy 
I've always felt this way about life in America.  My work with Food For The Poor and my travels to work with the destitute poor in Haiti and Jamaica gave me a broader perspective of what prosperity really is.  I met a parent whose child died for want of $2 in antibiotics.  If I lived in any country other than a highly-developed first world country--US, Canada, Western Europe, Japan--I'd be looking at a much more grave prognosis.  Because of the care I've received and the care that will be available to me in the future, I have a lot to look forward to.  I think about all the support from Al and his work and dedication to get me back to normal.  So yes, here with Al, there are lots of things to look forward.  Our hearts that were angry when I was first diagnosed now beat relatively easy.
I lost a good friend
Christmas time when folks go off the deep end
His woman took the kids and he took klonopin
Enough to kill a man of twice his size 
Not for me to understand
Remember him when he was still a proud man
A vandals smile a baseball in his right hand
Nothing but the blue sky in his eye
 While I never even considered suicide, I can understand the despair over the future that could make a reasonably emotionally healthy person consider it.  You can become hopeless when who you are seems so far from the person you've always considered yourself to be and you don't see a clear path to become the person you believe you are.  That's what those two verses say to me.  I talked about that feeling in this post--Before and After Part 2  This was in July when I wasn't sure about the hematologic response and hadn't seen any organ response either.  I looked back at the person I was at Amy's wedding--not just the physical state, but also the emotional state--and didn't think I'd ever get back to a reasonable facsimile of that person.
Still compared to those
A stones throw away from you
Our lives have both been relatively easy
Take the year and make a break
There ain't that much at stake
The answers could be relatively easy
I think about the people I know who are fighting much harder battles with this disease than I am and face a much longer road to normal, if that's even possible.  I think about my friend Robyn who died in September after a four-year battle with Pancreatic Cancer.  I'm coming up on my one-year anniversary of my diagnosis.  I did take a year, there was a lot at stake, but, yes the answers were relatively easy.  As Dr. Parikh said I've breezed through this.

So, I'll sit here enjoy a post-workweek glass of red wine and bask in all the good news I've received and contemplate Relatively Easy.

2 comments:

Rose said...

Nice blog posting Kate. I think too why we are facing this disease. In the absence of answers, I am glad for the presence of the Holy Spirit that touches us regardless of where we are. Your posts have been an encouragement to me.

Unknown said...

Hello Kate
I am a man of France aged 45 years old and I am suffering from amyloidosis patient.

Congratulations for your blog.

I wish you lots of good things for the future.

sorry for my bad english

Fabian